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I'm bored. Come play. I want to see who has a burning question for me. Anything. All questions will be answered. Ask as many as you want. Don't be scurred. Ask.fm/Trinitijordan

Nights Like This. . .

I hate my mind sometimes. I can have all these thoughts running thru it but as soon as I want to blog or write, my mind goes blank and I forget everything. This is why I haven't posted much. I miss writing my poetry. I've tried all kinds of tricks and tips. But this has been going on for almost 10 years now. So spare me the "oh just do this" talk.

Maybe my mind is telling me that some people aren't ready and can't handle the complexities of my thoughts. Sometimes I want to call my now former friend but  usually I feel like he doesn't really understand what I'm saying and is just there to let me ramble and vent, not really giving any good feedback or criticism. I want conversation. I can talk to myself if I didn't want to get any response. And that's what I'm almost having resort to now since he has kicked me to the curb. He'll deny it, I'm sure. But he doesn't call anymore. Doesn't request my company. Barely speaks when he does see me. What a keeper.

Anyways, this writers block is hindering me from finishing my book. I keep putting it off cause when I try to spend some time working on it, must of that time is spent rereading or reformatting but not much actual writing. My story as it stands now is mostly the same as it was a year ago. Shame on me, I know. I'm trying tho and I won't give up cause I really want people to read it.

So just bear with me as I try to get back into the swing of things. Thanx for your patience, all my invisible readers :)

Getting This Off My Chest

Some people just dont listen. Or they act like they didnt hear you, thinking it'll go away or that they can change things. I would think I know myself better than anyone. So if I told you I might eventually do something you dont like, but you said you're a man and can handle it, why then are you mad at me cause I actually did it? And your way of "handling it" is to pretty much cut me off? I take responsibility for what I did and I apologize. But you wont take responsibility for what you did, which is basically, you asked for it. I warned you. I tried to keep you from it. But you were determined and you persisted. And when things didnt go the way you wanted, even though you got what you wanted, you make me out to be the bad guy.

I still want you as my friend but it seems like you dont. You've made your jealousy very clear at times but I let it go cause I know you may still be hurting. But dont act like a stingy kid who doesnt want to share his toys. The problem you have is that you're always at either extreme. There is no middle ground with you, at least when it comes to me. Its either too much or nothing at all. I've explained this to you several times and Im not saying you didnt try but you efforts seemed too short lived before you're back at one of those extremes again.

On one hand, I dont want to lose my friend after everything we've been thru. On the other hand, its like you've already checked out, and you dont seem to want to come back unless you can have your way. I shouldn't have to chase you if its something we mutually want. But im not even on the back burner. You put me behind the stove!

This isnt something Im just now feeling. Ive been feeling it for a while but I've been trying to find ways to salvage this and I feel like you're just moving further and further away, making it harder. I could be wrong and if I am, call me and correct me. But if im not, you've already given up on me. So I guess thats it.

Confused about Jesus

These are serious questions. It is not meant to offend or mock anyone. These are things I am personally confused about.

Some people say Jesus is the only way to heaven. So does that mean that anyone who doesnt believe Jesus is God will automatically go to Hell no matter how much good they have done in their life? What about those who lived before Jesus? They had no knowledge of him so does that mean they dont go to heaven either?


Question: "How were people saved before Jesus died for our sins?"

Answer: Since the fall of man, the basis of salvation has always been the death of Christ. No one, either prior to the cross or since the cross, would ever be saved without that one pivotal event in the history of the world. Christ's death paid the penalty for past sins of Old Testament saints and future sins of New Testament saints.

http://www.gotquestions.org/before-Jesus.html

So according to what this website has stated, that would pretty much mean EVERYONE who came before Jesus is guaranteed Heaven. Does that mean that those who were condemned to Hell before are then sent off to Heaven once Jesus died? Since they lived and died before Jesus was born, they could not accept him so what makes those people any different from the people who exist now that do good and believe in a higher power but dont call that higher power Jesus or Christ or any other moniker?